“The wall always lies” – he said as we made small talk on the way up the hill.

How many ways do we kid ourselves and lull ourselves into a silly sense of playing the real game?

How do we effort and invest ourselves in busy work that shrinks our story and lessens our light?

I play tennis everyday
Against a wall

My bones are brittle and my body is bruised

But I still can put on a good show

So when a kid walked by and said – “You want to hit?” – I wasn’t too put off by the USTA T-shirt

I was unprepared for the onslaught of embarrassment I brought to the house of Stark.

After all – I frequent the wall.

The wall is a lie

A trick I play on myself – for myself – that I’m still in the game

But when the game comes to you – not to embarrass or impress,
but just to be what it is- real and raw, it holds up a mirror.

You can look away.

But you can’t hide and pretend you were in it all along

I said – sometime later on the way down the hill –

“Hey I haven’t played much in a while but before this…….I thought I was hitting pretty well.”

After all –

On the wall.

He said with a smile,  a second time now – with evidence and our fresh experience to tether this truth

“The wall always lies “

And it was true.

If you are going to play the game – play it right and play it real

The wall is happy to delight in your delusion

But in the end – when we play it soft and  small and seek out and sneak about the safety of the shade –

We fool nobody but ourselves.

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I am an author, artist and entrepreneur. My 2 passions are writing about, and teaching Marketing and Meditation. I like to think I'm a lot like Eckhart Tolle, if only he was taller, and a much better tennis player. (it turns out in person, he's super short, has a terrible backhand and wears this weird scottish hat thingy that makes it really difficult to concentrate while serving) Plus he refuses to keep score and says " it's always NOW" when you ask who is up. Enough about me. We barely know each other. Stop staring. You're making me nervous.